Can't believe it...

I was your typical daddy's girl. Before I met Todd, he was the person I called when I was in a jam. He would call me every day just to see how I was doing. We would talk about nothing. Then he got sick. He had a heart attack in 2003. After his heart attack, he wasn't the same person. He retired in 2006, and in 2007 he really started to decline. On June 5, 2008, he found out he had stage 4 liver cancer. He fought it for as long as he could, but he passed away on October 26, 2008. I can't believe that it has been over a year since I have heard his voice, or gave him a hug. I can't believe that he has missed a year in my life, but also my daughter's life. Molly will never know her Pa-Pa. The few pictures I have of the two of them I treasure. I would give anything to pick up the phone and hear my dad's voice on the other side. It is so weird, because I will go days without being sad, and then something will happen and I will feel like I have been punched in the stomach. Sometimes I just start crying for no reason. It is really hard now with the new baby on the way. I can't believe that there is going to be a person in my family that my dad will never know. It is heartbreaking.